June 28, 2005

In all my selfish glory...

"ரம்யா, செரியா பாரு, அந்த leftல இருக்கர photoல அந்த அப்பா மூஞ்சி cleara இருக்கா?" (Ramya, look carefully, is the dad's face clear in the photo on the left?)

"இருக்கு மா, இத எத்தனை தரவ கேப்ப?" (Yes ma, how many times will you ask?)

"இல்ல, அந்த card கடை கொஞ்சம் தள்ளி இருக்கு, வெய்யில்ல திருப்பி போக வேண்டாமேன்னு பார்த்தேன்..." (The card shop is a bit far, I did not want to go out in the sweltering heat one more time...)

After I hung up, I did not immediately pick up a book or start switching channels on TV. I did not want the distractions of convenience interfere or in anyway diminish the cloud of guilt that surrounded me.

I did not particularly fancy the border used for the wedding invitation card, I got annoyed when asked a third time if I liked the card, I insisted that my name not be written in capital letters on the card - all the little imperfections, Oh yes, I caught them immediately!

And still, I missed the one thing that was staring at me all along - my selfishness!


D.N.A. said...

Its your "first". SO you have the right to be selfish.

Feeling "guilt" is one way of saying you yearn for an "acknowledgemnt" for your "selfishness"!

- me & my cynical psyche

Ramji said...

Blog rolled you!!

Prabu Karthik said...


Ramji? Your bro?

RS said...

To d.n.a: hmm...ok. deep thoughts.

To ramji: cool :)

To Prabu Karthik: nope, my friend.
My bro is the famous and not so frequent, L :)

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