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August 08, 2005

Missed Moments...

Not of moments that fill our reminscences, but of moments that were meant to be special but slipped away from us even as we stood with our eyes wide open, moved but not attempting to move, to grab that which could have been...a precious moment now diminished to a chimera, perhaps a lost friend, a soul mate who never did become one, love fading in the blink of an eye, a meaningful silence relegated to nothingness, perhaps a smirk where a smile should have been?...that which was meant to be but could not be.

As I trod along the well worn path that we call life, for an instant I think of a person, a moment, an event that could have meant much more to me than it does now and I still think of it because hidden in a nook of my heart is a small voice that reminds me at these instants that the magic that was to be was lost because I did nothing to make it concrete, to guide it to perfection - I probably let the fleeting moment pass and pass it did with just a wisp to remind me of what could have been...

I think of a friend I had in School - a sweet, gentle thing with a smile that always brightened my day...ages back and her memory lingers behind to remind me perhaps that we were meant to be friends for life? I think of friends who have come and gone, mere guests dropping in and straying away and wonder if I should have held on, if I should have said something more...if we were meant to be exchanging stories of our lives, clasping hands together, discussing our days on a lazy Saturday morning with a steaming mug of coffee and a phone cradled on our necks...perhaps, I remained silent and so did (s)he and perhaps as I think of them, they think of me too...?

We laughed, we talked and we failed to hear the clock as it chimed out to us, but when it was time to part, as the decisions of our lives seperated us from each other, I remained silent and so did (s)he...Missed moments that are mere moments now because I stood rooted to the spot grinning back at them as they waved their goodbyes and stepped out of my life, maybe if I had stepped out then, I shall have more than a missed moment to recollect?

12 comments:

Prabu Karthik said...

its so refreshing to read this.
i think every one could relate to this post...

Shiva said...

how on earth do you write stuff like this !!
am feeling nostalgic and slightly sad - remembering things that I convinced myself I had forgotten..:( alone in the dead of the night, miles away from where my heart is, a blog like this makes me re-live the pain..

Samudraa said...

:) liked this "As I trod along the well worn path that we call life".good stuff here .

RS said...

P~K: Thanks :), just as refreshing to read your comment!

shiva: hopefully someday I will also write something happy that will make you relive your happiness too :)

samudraa: thanks :)

TJ said...

More than the soul mate, who never became one, i definitely Missed the moments, when i would defnintely hve made my family smile. Appa and Amma, the sacrifice they made for us, if not repay[which we cant!] them, atleast need to recognize them. 'Petha manam pithu, pillai manam kallu' one nice saying. I definitely miss the moments, where i cud have reassured them of their importance to me much better and see them smile.

Ram said...

nice stuff, RS. very evocative.

IBH said...

very well written! brougt back memories and a tiny drop of tear in my eyes! as pk said, I could relate so well with this post!

dinesh said...

Nice post. Could relate to it really well. As a corollary, just think about how lucky we were to have smiled during those instances, which on another day could have found its way out of our system as a smirk !

RS said...

tj: true...there's so much to say there it's a topic for a whole new post!

ram: thanks :)

ibh: Glad you could, I thought it was cute that you thanked all your friends in your post :)

dinesh: a comment after ages!

Yes, while there are moments we missed, there are some we didn't let go, thank God for that :)

Zeppelin said...

rs,

i was thinking exactly about this on the way back from cincinnati on monday... actually could not take my mind off...

and here you are fueling the fire... :)

RS said...

phil, just another post filled with "what ifs" I guess :)

Ram said...

it's this one then :)- coincidence indeed. i still cannot come up with a sentence or two that i could have said to my friend then! weird moments, those...

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